Changes..

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Victor Frankl

Life is changing all around me, but really life changes every day, we hardly ever notice till something changes us.

This month I have endured some drastic changes in my life. I have started a diet, maybe one could say a life style change, I am in the middle of what is looking like the end of a relationship, I was told by my landlord this month that the home I am currently renting going into foreclosure, and unknown how long I have left to stay here, I had my oldest son being freshman football, making his mother very proud, My younger daughter cutting her foot requiring stitches, I also am dealing with my 13 year old child possible being diagnosed with Turner’s syndrome, which luckily is turning out to not be severe but the main side effect is she may never have her own child, which for a mother is hard to come to grips with, also not knowing how to help her cope when and if she is diagnosed. [[as of right now she does not know what they are testing per say, my daughter is 13 and stands about the same height as a typical 8 year old, she has always been small, but very body proportionate so they choose to not jump at saying she is a “little person” as of yet.]

Moving on.

This month life has not only hit me head on, it came back and tried to run me over. BUT for the first time in my life, I have a positive attitude. Why? Honestly I have no idea.

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. ~Mary Engelbreit

In away having no idea what tomorrow holds means I focus only on today, while I have to plan where I will live in the future and how to support myself and 4 children, as of today I am doing what I can now, not trying to change what has happen, or what will come of the future, those things I have no control over, I can only control my today.


Back to the dieting.. I am amazed to say today marks 22 days of no soda, not a single binge, not a single cupcake, cookie or any of those “bad” things. I have stuck to my diet 100%. Something I have NEVER accomplished before.
Weight loss has slowed but that is due to not exercising as much but I have for the past 5 days walked 2 miles. I have lost a total of 16 lbs. but more than that.. I have energy. I feel like for once I have my act together that even if I can’t control the world around me this I can control.

The Truth is..

I always hated changing, in every aspect, new school, new house, new job, I never looked at them as a “new beginning” or welcomed the new challenge, but I was so afraid of things getting worst, or failing, that I failed to see that by not changing or adapting I was missing out on all the positive changes

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end...