HCG & me..

So HCG diet is done will I'm now in the maintenance phase.

The diet its self wasn’t bad, it made me very couscous of what I was eating, helped me plan out portions & drink plenty of water.

The diet itself didn’t yield the results I had expected solely because I wasn’t continuously on the plan.

I started in week one lost 12 pounds, then had to stop for nearly 2 weeks for blood work, only because my doctor needed to ensure it wasn’t effecting my iron levels {it didn’t}, and gained back 3 pounds.

Then back on for 2 weeks.

2 complicated weeks, I struggled a few days, I wasn’t hungry eating only 500 calories, but my craving for comfort foods when I was stressed didn’t go away, I often eat when I’m not hungry comfort.

I started March 7th, weighing in at 263 pounds and today I weigh 246 that are 17 pounds in less than one month.

In November, I left my boyfriend. Only to date a bit, then as comfort return back to living with him.

Mistake. Especially while on a highly restrictive diet. Only for him to tell me "he planned on making sure I became the 500 pound woman then I would never leave him"

Well this month. I left aging. This time for good.

I also discovered my job is transitioning and in a few months I will be working from home. I am thrilled to cut the drive time, a whole extra hour of my life gained back, saving in gas money and no more worrying about who will be home for my children.

But it also brings many more changes, I need to now find a place to live by June, what’s going to happen when I’m sitting at home will I become lazy and binge again, will I idly just munching all day simple because I can?

Currently I am living with my mom & her boyfriend, and so far it’s working nicely. I'm more active, I live next to a beautiful park, swimming pool & walking distance from so much. My mom is very active herself so it gives me more incentive. She has always been leery of my weight, she never knows just what to say, except but you have such a beautiful face. I remember the first time she had seen me after I gained 100+ pounds she gasped, it seemed as if she stopped breathing she was so shocked, teared up.. and didn’t stop talking as she stared at me, like I was a complete stranger, but when I told her I lost 17 pounds, she high 5'd me.. Hugged me.. and said she knew I would do it this time. I have never had encouragement like that from anyone in my family. It felt nice.

My journey isn’t over, far from it, I have 3 weeks of maintained, and then I'm doing another round of HCG this time with no stopping.

As far as maintained just because I can eat more calories, I’m not wasting them. Admittedly living with my mom where there is a pantry full of junk food, do nuts, brownies, pies & soda glare it almost gives me more power to say no. I don’t crave it like I used to, I only want it on the nights I feel like crying, after everyone is asleep and I have time to think..

Truth is:

If you keep on doing what you've always done, you'll keep on getting what you've always got..it's time to accept the things I can't change and change the things I can't accept.