tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31634937645073887742012-01-14T22:15:46.431-07:00The First Step Is Admitting You Have a Problem and I do Admitting that I cannot control my food addiction or compulsion; in the process hopefully Helping others that suffer from the same addictions or compulsionsjust mehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10513010431250654153noreply@blogger.comBlogger331100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3163493764507388774.post-46020148004901438092010-04-04T17:45:00.003-07:002010-04-04T17:55:48.157-07:00

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"The phrase working mother is redundant."~Jane Sellman I have been an awful blogger, and even more so an awful dieter!Recently life has takes a major turn, i have returned to the workingworld after a 3 year hiatus.My weight had gone down to 251, but then last minute stressing, andwell taking advantage of fast food for connivance i am sad to say asfor march 1st i weighed 262. Still not my all time

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The past few months have been a whirl wind of high highs and low lows, so much it has really shock me to the core of who I am and how strong I really am.Anyone who reads my blog knows I struggle with self esteem; recently I posted about my relationship falling apart. While this is a weight loss blog, I have realized how much my life around me affects my weight loss.My boyfriend is a compulsive

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I have been battling a cold, seems one of the kids get it, I get it, we get rid of it clean the house top to bottom, someone else brings it in, it’s a nasty cycle, but lately I have been tired, winded more than usual. The cold has really gotten my down this time. Or has it?Finally I broke down, I couldn’t breathe walking from my car to the store I found myself winded. Now I may be fat, but I can

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Yes it’s that time again. I am now 32 years old. 32 years old.. I have spent the last 9 birthdays vowing that this would be the last year I was overweight. The last Birthday I would be unhappy and un healthy.I received this in an email from my sister.. as a joke.."hahahahahaha at least your not that big right??!!!"Truth is..I wasn’t laughing…

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Recently watching Dr Oz they had a guest Lisa, she was a binge eater, she talked about her secret eating and I sat there and cried, relating to every word she said. She said she didn’t know why she started eating like this, but as she got older it became worst once she was able to buy her own food. Lisa was told to eat a few of her binge foods every evening as a snack to get past the feeling that

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I have been trying to get on track, falling off, talking myself in to starting again tomorrow, and finally convincing myself to just walk away, I didn't need or want it. I woke up this morning refreshed that the past week, I had done pretty well, turned away from the soda, ate healthy, drinking plenty of water, not exercising quite yet, but getting my butt moving well atleast moving away from

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Binge, that one word explains it all,.I was doing fabulous. Notice the word was.I remember the moment I decided I needed to binge. I was overwhelmed with just life in general. I was eating a low carb ice cream bar, talking myself into just eating one more, and then I needed another. I didn’t even realize I had eaten the whole box.Afterwards, I thought to myself brush it off it wasn’t that

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I eat not because I am hungry, but because I am unhappy, lonely angry or sad But, Regardless of what I eat, it doesn’t help, and it doesn’t make things better it leaves me with a sense of numbness,But just temporarily, eventually it wears off and I feel even worst then before.With that being said, I absolutely hate the after effects of eating unhealthy foods, the upset stomach, the headache s,

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I have noticed that either blogger is slacking on spammers, or that I have ran into many unsupportive flamers. I am choosing at least for right now to put my blog private, to keep out the harsh unwanted comments that I really just don't need at the moment. However, some of you are amazing and supportive, and well if you would like to continue to follow please leave an email below or to my email

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I have been doing fabulous sticking to plan, my daughter had a check up today, she really wanted to go out for breakfast as she was not allowed to eat prior to her appointment, so we headed over to village inn which happens to be next door to the doctor’s office.I ordered a egg, bacon, cheese omelet, made with egg beaters, pretty Atkins friendly, then decided heck it has been so long that I was

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When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Victor FranklLife is changing all around me, but really life changes every day, we hardly ever notice till something changes us.This month I have endured some drastic changes in my life. I have started a diet, maybe one could say a life style change, I am in the middle of what is looking like

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Today is officially day number 7 on my "Atkins–ish" diet; I am keep track using both "Calorie King & “the Atkins journal” to track my progress. [I am very visual!]Happy to report after 7 days I weighed in at 261, yes that is 12 pounds, I am thrilled.I have made it an effort to drink 6-8 glass of water a day, which is a small feat considering I usually wouldn’t drink that much water in a week

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So have been missing in action, haven’t used twitter, haven’t blogged, pretty much decided I need to think things through.You see my boyfriend is an obsessive gambler. I am an obessive overeater, what happens when those to combine? problems, lots of them, atleast lately.See he gambles, I stress over money, I eat. He makes comment about needing food again; we argue over money, I eat more And the

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Gastric bypass, while I would love to have it done, it is not an option for me, aside from insurance not covering it, no money to pay out of pocket,looking past that I'm wondering if there is some sort of alternative gastric bypass for my brain. You see I have an overeating disorder that has absolutely nothing to do with my stomach. I eat when I am not hungry, because my brain says EAT. My

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My mom decided to take my children for the day, so since I am rarely without my children, boyfriend and I decided to wonder out and go shopping to a marketplace on the other side of town, we have been to select stores there in the past but never truly walked around the mall section, it is an outdoor mall, looks just like your typical mall but the with no roof, the misting system everywhere keeps

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Should I combine both blogs.. or is it better to keep sepreated. http://myrandommthoughts.blogspot.com/Thruth is.. I SHOULD be exercising, walking, Something other then just sitting here worrying about my blog.

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Walking through the market, filling up my cart with fresh fruits and vegetables, whole grains, light , reduced fat or sugar free products, just screams to everyone“HEY THIS FAT CHICK IS ON A DIET!!”, walking down the “health food aisle" & checking nutrion labels is even worst, It's feels just like me walking into Victoria Secrets and the attendant asking if I am lost, as she points my way to the

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We all know that journaling is one of the best ways to lose weight. Keeping track of what we goes in as well as what we are burning is the most reliable way to lose weight.I know that for me watching what I consume keeps me on track. I am proud of the days I eat 1200-1500 calories, and ell I can see how my binging affects my diet with the 3000 plus days as well. I am leaning by tracking those

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Watching Biggest Loser reruns and finally watching an Oprah episode I dvr’ed featuring Kristie Alley’s weight gain of course got me inspired.Biggest Loser… Yes anyone can lose weight, and they amaze me with the numbers they drop, but it almost seems so unattainable, at times I feel like the “loser” for not being nearly as successful as they are,Now don’t get me wrong I was thrilled to see them

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Now I am well aware my weight holds me back from so many things in life, but today it was one of those “wow does my weight constrict me THAT much” moments we all have from time to time.There have been times I lied to my friends..No can’t go out to that concert, or hang out at that club/bar because I have no sitter, when the truth was well I was overweight and don’t want pictures taken of me, or

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I received a message from a friend on one of the million social networking sites out there asking why I never respond to her emails. Well she was using an email that I had not used in forever; it has now turned into my “spam catch all” email address. It has been months since I logged in...Browsing through gobs for “you won click here to claim your prize” or “acai berry, loose 35 pounds and eat

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The main reason I blog is because here I have a voice. I can speak my turth, come face to face with how I truly feel.Here I can say whatever I feel, the truth, no holding back.I don’t have to worry about backlash, criticism, or hurt feelings from friends or family I may offend.Now I could keep this blog private, some sort of hidden diary for only my eyes to see, but I felt by allowing whomever

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What a wonderful week and half..My baby girl got a stomach bug, then my older daughter, my son before you know it everyone had it, and me well I got it twice. Once with everyone else; Then again while cleaning up after everyone else.What does being sick mean to a fat person?Glad you asked..Sparing you the gory details, on top of the getting down praying to the porcelain thrown yourself, it is

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You read all the right and wrong ways to lose weight,diet exercise, not fads, skipping meals, obsessive fasting, colon-cleansing,downing the latest diet pills, fasting etc. But what about wrong reasons towant to lose weight?Now to quote Dr Phil, "losing weightwon’t solve all your problems." Which is true ...or is it?We are awareof the health related reasons losing weight can benefit a person,

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Walk with me a bit down memory lane...After my 3rd child, which was a nightmarish pregnancy to begin with, the only bright spot was my beautiful baby girl. It was a pregnancy full of ER trips for false labor, bed rest for 6 weeks, and a baby born 13 weeks to early.I was 21 when she was born, and my then husband told me he would either be out of work or we needed to move out of state. We did , now

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Support· give moral or psychological support, aid, or courage to· back: be behind; approve of;Since I have gained weight it seems my level of support has diminished. I would like to think they support me, but just don’t know how to properly express themselves.Few examples after losing 32 pounds casual co workers, my hair stylist, even my daughter’s teacher noticed when I saw my mom for the first

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Went to a local festival yesterday, figured it would be a great time.It was for my children, and I was glad they were having a wonderful time.I however it was an eye-opening venture for me.First off let me explain that last year we took a trip to Disneyland I didn’t ride any rides, my daughter was about 6 months old at the time, and afraid I would not fit on the rides. My significant other took

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Not actually doing it, I haven’t started just yet, but I plan to...I plan to start Monday; I plan to start on this date. I am waiting to start just as soon as this product comes out, or until I have the money to get this that or the other. I am sure I can’t start until I have that the new exercise video, product, pill, book, gizmo or gadget.I am waiting on starting my diet until I eat all of the

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Lose weight before you get help to lose weight ...confusing huh?I remember as a teenager, about the same age as my children now, saving up money to buy the newest Dextrin or Acutrim that came out, following all the fad diets or even my parents giving me the "Stop the Insanity"" book by Susan Powters.I wasn’t overweight as a child, or even a teenager. I was a teenage parent and still wasn’t

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I have noticed how jealous I have been, the s/o has been going out with his business partner, drinks at the bar, lunch at "Hooters" or other places where they are scantily dressed women as servers; even a trip with a newly engaged friend to a strip club. He tells me "It never bothered you before"... well true, but it bothers me now He has also recently been working on several issues at this one

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I am overweight, no actually I am morbidly obese.I am determined to lose weight, but have no motivation.I hide behind my fat, but also because of it.I feel like I can’t do it alone, but I find it hard to confide in others.I know how to lose weight; I just can’t seem to overcome temptation.I binge because I am overweight, which leads me to gain more.WHY AM I FAT?I do not exerciseI eat more then I

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